There really is never enough time in the day to do all the things which have to be done. This I've learnt at the Fish Factory, it just don't stop. But I do get a chance to breath every now and again. Otherwise I'd be turning blue, or fainting all over the place. Except for today. Today I can categorically say I have not worried as much as I normally would. This is because tomorrow I get to see Sparkling Eyes. A sleep, followed by a short train ride, followed by a short underground hop, followed by a much longer train ride and then I'll be there, on the doorstep, moi. Knowing I am just about to get away from it all and see Sparkling is like being given a dozen tranquilizes, I've had the feeling that nothing was actually going to bother me. When one of the little fishes kept nipping at my heals, I just let it go coz there was nothing more I was going to do and certainly not by the end of the day. It was almost like the little fish really just didn't get it. What pond I wondered were they swimming in coz it certainly wasn't the one I was in, coz I'd know, this one was calm and easy going and not giving a second thought. Yesterday there was a fire alarm at the Fish Factory and precious time was lost standing outside in the beautiful sunny weather. Chatting rather than doing work. This fortunate break in the afternoon was also very relaxing. So when I returned back to the Factory I just didn't have any more zing left to get on with what had to be done. It's like I had began calming down.
This evening I checked out FaceBook and Sparkling had added a comment, it seemed she had a little tizzy. Rock Chick had responded with a comment about tidying up the house. Oh I thought. I'm forewarned now, don't drop any crumbs, leave shoes around or be untidy otherwise I'll be in trouble. But I don't think it would worry me too much if I did get into trouble, because it would mean I am in Sparkling's company and I am not in her company every day. I could hear her curse at me, huff at me and blow my house down. I'm sure it won't be as bad as that but she can definitely huff when she wants to, and let me say every huff is lovely. lol. OK I'm sucking up, just in case she gets to read this. No. But, I'd be in a state of happiness which is what would matter more than anything.
Anyway talking about being chilled out and not letting things get under my skin. I watched a vid on youtube last night as well. It was a sketch from a man who was in an airplane crash. It was the plane which crashed into the Hudson River. Everyone survived it. But at the time this man had three realisations which hit him and he now carried around with him every day of his life. One was how short life is, and how he had kept putting off things. It made him realise to do those things he had kept leaving and waiting. Another was how he had wasted a lot of time and had been negative. His his ego got in the way of things. In the way of his relationships with people around him. Subsequenly he calmed down and said since the accident he hadn't had a single arguement with his wife, and just as importantly he became an even better father to his child. Lastly, he said he had no longer became afraid of dying, it was as though everyday had been a preparation for it and it wasn't so bad after all. I think what he learnt was actually how to live his life, his life, his experience and now how much more he treasured those around him. I think this says, of all the things in our lives it is other people around us which make us happiest and he had found this out and also learnt the role he played. In all it sounds like a self enlightening experience.
I wonder what thoughts I'd think if I had a near death experience. Better make sure I tidy up after me then, hadn't I?
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