CBB, rain, a pinched umbrella and a dream

Well last night, try as I might, and I blooming did try, I just could not get connected to Celebrity Big Brother (CBB).  In frustration I left a message on the web site telling them they were under warning if this continued then I'd give up even bothering to view CBB.  I'm now two episodes behind and am itching to actually see them.  It must be the nosey Parker side of me kicking in.  Reality TV with guinea pigs all for the convenience of the viewer.  Lovely.

We are about to go into a bank holiday weekend, each bank holiday is usually marked by rain.  So on que last night's weather report indicated was of torrential rain over the entire weekend.  This will come in handy to test out my newly acquired (found/lifted) umbrella to see how well it works or not.  The only issue I have is whoever it belongs to recognises it and then approaches me to say it is theirs.  It's odd how I possess now two good umbrellas and both of them were picked up because someone else left them behind.  The one I purchase tend to either get left behind by me or broken.  Cheap umbrellas don't work.  So don't do it, stay out of the rain rather than buy a cheapy, I know.  There are knotches on my wallet where each one marks the loss of money to a cheap umbrella.  Fortunately there's not many of them.

I woke up this morning coming out of a weird dream.  Sparkling was in it.  I had a feeling of loss.  Some other man was in the process of taking her away from me.  Like all dreams it was scrambled up.  It's the feeling which was disturbing. I saw Sparkling working in a posh food place.  It was open where you could see the chefs.  There she stood making crepes, I saw her use an implement to spread the mixture on the crepe maker device.  She wore her black cooks outfit.  Her hair looked great and it seemed to me she was completely in her element and enjoying what she was doing.  I was trying to somehow influence my dream because I had woken and dropped back into a dream state again.  It didn't seem to work. However, that's life, conscious mind can not control unconscious mind.  I got up late. Well, being a bank holiday weekend no matter how manic it is in the Fish Factory means you can take it easy.  Unless of course you happen to be going out into the rain, with a half-inched umbrella.  Like I could be.

A note on Celebrity BB

I've been catching up with Celebrity Big Brother and again it is amazing to see the dynamics of human relations in a confined space, a great reality and psychological experiment.  The odd thing though seems even amongst low ranking listed celebrities there is the odd one which comes across as mentally unstable (Jasmine).  They are like children, as they have the same underlying emotional inabilities of a very young child.  They can be histrionic and worse have a tendency towards bully like behaviours.  Being famous or part famous is not a marker of mental stability. obviously. Regardless of how well kept and beautiful these people appear to be on the surface, they are just still people.  If you take away the aura of fame and wealth there is no difference from any other person.  I think this would go for any individual regardless of their status, when you get beyond things such as they way they talk, walk, clothes worn, hair style or bodies there's nothing outside of what can be experienced in ordinary every day land of the not so famous, rich, wana be popular etc.  I'd even go so far to say some are boring and there is people in the real ordinary world who are much more interesting personality wise.

Further, forgive me if I am wrong on this, or indeed point out examples I am wrong, it appears to be worse in females than males.  For bitchiness can only really come out well when a woman does it.  Is this a gender divide in normal behaviour I ask myself, and probably can only come up with one answer, yes.  But it is entertainment to watch.  Young males (Ashley), lets say in their early 20s to mid thirties also act differently around each other.  They act like boys or lads and in so doing when forming groups have a bully like feel to them.  They can be loud and brash and swim in ignorance like sun block on a hot Greek beach.  They are also very poor judges of girls. Big Brother should of provided them all with books on the politeness of behaviour with girls and got them to understand a little maturity can go a long way.

There is one actress (Julie) on celebrity BB who I thought I would never like as a person, but in the house she appears as quite a pleasant individual.  Another female contestant (Coleen) pointed out she had heard rumours about this actress as being a bitch in person and believe a game is being played.  But then being anything but  yourself for 24-7 is difficult.  Unless she is so very well disciplined and is able to disguise her true nature in other ways.  It will only be as time goes on these things will be revealed. What this space fellow Celebrity BB watchers it's early days yet.  What is noticeable though and shared also in the earlier for the common people BB is the heightened sense of paranoia individual's have with each other.  There is nothing to occupy their selves other than discussion about each other.  Or to impart experiences etc..  They are feeling the water, getting to know each other and clearly there are impressions gleaned.  Sometimes it has to be taken as fact, one person (Rhian) will never get on with another (Jasmine) person they are just too different and their traits conflict, this is life.  Even though individually they may be very nice people.  In a small place though there is nowhere to go and hide and avoid each other.  Maybe this is why they then get so paranoid.  I suppose there would never be a BB with just a single person sitting a room.  Mind I'm sure it's not out of bounds to consider some characters are so feisty they could have an argument with their own reflection (Jasmine), or so nuts (Jasmine) they have interpersonal issues with most of the other housemates (Lorenzo, Danica etc) unless they (Jasmine) is actually smarter than their anorexic waist size and are playing the game.  How interesting it all is, or should I be saying how screwed up.  And I thought families were bad.

BB should consider calming medication.  I'll take two with a cup of tea and a bit of toast thanks.